well its sweet with the title but now its bitter to see the title... i guess not long this blog will be not here... and i have backup the blog content which remains just as a memories....
for this blog, i not sure are there any1 reading it... i guess nop... and due to unsupportive i guess i might just stop writting already... its just like a feeling of my insanity to talking to myself... i quite tired of it... may b i just open a new 1 for writting my view out....
justin
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Life of 2 kinds of majority types of people...
well just a view on a book i read long time ago...
lets see what majority childrens are educated on...
private? government? haha either of them will build diff kinds of mindset
i can state 1st i study in government school... till my secondary school life...
why i pointing this information out? simple... to widen the mindset...
peoples who studying in government school, as majority can see, alot teachers slacking and lazy? haha we used to be seeing all these teachers... well training students to copy notes memorizing and others its a normal things we can see...
yet not many noticing, actually we already being set into a mind set of being a workers forever with high probability...
why i said so? haha 6+ 5 years of education in government school i often heard, study well get good grade, you will be well employed and good pay . in the end you will be rich.... how true about this statement? haha... for those working now... i guess you guys will feel aiks kinda recalling the statement somewhere listen before... well less than 30 % accuracy... why so little... cert is a freshie just started working will based on results... due to lack performance in the field to be observed... but problem solving? haha how many people able to solve problems for company... even myself also not that good in problem solving... well about details... no need to mention much, just point the important part, study well get good grades and you will be rich or no money problem in short...
for private, not applicapable for all,
where environment, full with rich parents... haha does anyone interview the students around there? well i can give few answer about their ambition, i wanna own a clinic... *for government school students will wanted to be doctor in short employed*
i wanna own a lawyer firm *again G school will just wanted to be employed as a lawyer* and others...
well i guess pointed kinda clearly about the statement...
own and wanna be
why two words so big diff... cause both effort and contribution diff...
diff mind set will gives diff resulting payment...
for owning a business they bearing the risk and high effort of making it out...
but for being a professional just bearing the education only, which most time highly in debt due to education loan and hardly paying it off...
well i guess people reading it getting the ideas what i wanna stating...
to be in owning business or to be workers
depends on own choice... to be frank, being a worker for guy, needs 3k salary if married... due to house rental and others expenses... well you all can do the calculation... but for having children who will be going for tertiery education, 3k per month its not enough to cover the cost...
to keep the long story short, choose your road wisely to be in the right direction for what you wants... peoples most time are followers due to friends and family influence... you its your life, so decision for your life based on your decision not others...
the end
~~~~
lets see what majority childrens are educated on...
private? government? haha either of them will build diff kinds of mindset
i can state 1st i study in government school... till my secondary school life...
why i pointing this information out? simple... to widen the mindset...
peoples who studying in government school, as majority can see, alot teachers slacking and lazy? haha we used to be seeing all these teachers... well training students to copy notes memorizing and others its a normal things we can see...
yet not many noticing, actually we already being set into a mind set of being a workers forever with high probability...
why i said so? haha 6+ 5 years of education in government school i often heard, study well get good grade, you will be well employed and good pay . in the end you will be rich.... how true about this statement? haha... for those working now... i guess you guys will feel aiks kinda recalling the statement somewhere listen before... well less than 30 % accuracy... why so little... cert is a freshie just started working will based on results... due to lack performance in the field to be observed... but problem solving? haha how many people able to solve problems for company... even myself also not that good in problem solving... well about details... no need to mention much, just point the important part, study well get good grades and you will be rich or no money problem in short...
for private, not applicapable for all,
where environment, full with rich parents... haha does anyone interview the students around there? well i can give few answer about their ambition, i wanna own a clinic... *for government school students will wanted to be doctor in short employed*
i wanna own a lawyer firm *again G school will just wanted to be employed as a lawyer* and others...
well i guess pointed kinda clearly about the statement...
own and wanna be
why two words so big diff... cause both effort and contribution diff...
diff mind set will gives diff resulting payment...
for owning a business they bearing the risk and high effort of making it out...
but for being a professional just bearing the education only, which most time highly in debt due to education loan and hardly paying it off...
well i guess people reading it getting the ideas what i wanna stating...
to be in owning business or to be workers
depends on own choice... to be frank, being a worker for guy, needs 3k salary if married... due to house rental and others expenses... well you all can do the calculation... but for having children who will be going for tertiery education, 3k per month its not enough to cover the cost...
to keep the long story short, choose your road wisely to be in the right direction for what you wants... peoples most time are followers due to friends and family influence... you its your life, so decision for your life based on your decision not others...
the end
~~~~
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Difference Between Love and Infatuation
Difference Between Love and Infatuation
Filed Under (Uncategorized) by evonhon on 16-07-2008Are you really in love? Or do you think that you are in love?
There is a big difference between Love and infatuation. Some people can’t tell the difference, thinking they are in love but really it is a deep infatuation. Infatuation is instant desire - one set of glands calling to another.
Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows, one day at a time.
Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy.
There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine too closely. It might spoil the dream.
Love is the quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by their presence, even when they are away.
Miles do not separate you. You have so many wonderful little films in your head that you keep replaying.
But near or far, you know they are yours, and you can wait.
Infatuation says, “We must get married right away. I can’t risk losing them.”
Love says, “Be patient. Don’t panic. Plan your future with confidence.”
Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are together, you hope it will end in intimacy.
Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship, which makes sex so much sweeter. You must be friends before you can be lovers.
Infatuation lacks confidence. When they’re away, you wonder if they’re cheating. Sometimes, you check.
Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. They feel your trust, and it makes them even more trustworthy.
Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret, but love never steers you in the wrong direction.
Love is an upper. It makes you feel whole. It completes the circle. It fills the empty space in your heart.
Love is elevating. It lifts you up. It makes you look up. It makes you think up.
It makes you a better person than you were before. If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you don’t have. If there is no love in your life, whatever else there is has a lot less meaning. The secret of our being is not only to live but to have something to live for.
INFATUATION
Infatuation is a feeling; real love involves a commitment also. Infatuation is just love of emotion. Real love, though, is love of devotion. Only the emotions are affected in infatuation, but in real love both the emotions and the will are involved. Next, a person “fall into” infatuation, but “grows into” real love.
Guys, have you ever seen a girl who was so beautiful that you thought you’d faint?
This is infatuation! It is based totally on physical attraction. often you don’t know much in-depth about the person you so-called love. Thus, infatuation is mostly biological. Also remember, never tell a girl you love her, unless you are willing to marry her.
Then, infatuation is basically selfish where real love is basically selfless.Infatuation is more interested in satisfying yourself and the feeling than it is in the other person.
Real love is primarily interested in the other person. It seeks to give instead of get.. Love unselfishly seeks the highest good for the other person.
Lastly, infatuation is weakened by time and separation where real love is strengthened by time and separation.
This does not mean that there will be no pain in separation. On the contrary, there is great pain in separation if
you are truly in love.
LOVE
Now you know what is infatuation, we will go on to discuss about the details of a true love. Love is patient. The word translated “patient” means to wait patiently for the fulfilment of expectations.
When you have difficulty dating this girl and she does not want to come out, if you truly love her, you will not complain and blame her, you must look at the situation from her point of view - maybe she is having some problems which prevented her from coming out. You must react to it with patience and understanding.
Next, have you ever met someone you liked so much that you wanted to push the relationship and make it progress faster? Sure you have! Love, however, is willing to give a relationship time to grow at a natural pace.
It does not push but is willing to wait for the relationship to grow at a rate that is satisfactory to both parties.
Love is Kind Love seeks to encourage and build up others. It respects the feelings and emotions of others..
It finds its greatest satisfaction in making others happy.
You can do the following:
1. Give one another things such as gifts and encouragement cards.
2. Compliment one another. Magnify the other party’s strength.
3. Listen to one another. Pay close attention to what each of you has to say and make each other feel that what each says is important.
4. Treat one another special in public. Compliment and encourage one another sincerely in the presence of others.
5. Love is Not Jealous. Jealousy usually indicates an insecure and immature heart. Love wants the best for others, but jealousy is possessive. Jealous is reflected in the childish statement, “If he is going to talk to her, then he can just forget
about me!” Often, one person wants to totally possess the other and to restrict her relationships with others.
6. Love is not about bragging. Love is not a windbag and is not anxious to impress. Often a guy will brag to a girl, trying to impress her so that she will like him. A truly great person, however, does not need to exalt himself! Others will exalt him.
7. Love is Not Arrogant. Love is not conceited, boastful,cocky, or stuck-up. Love, instead, is humble and has a servant attitude. Sometimes, a guy may come across to a girl with an “I can take you or leave you” attitude. His demeanour implies, “You ought to be thankful that somebody as neat as me is dating you.” Of course, this is not love.
8. Love always covers. This word cover means to pass over in silence, to keep confidential.
9. Love is patient with the faults of others. It doesn’t criticise and broadcast to the world the faults of others.
Love is there even when it knows the other is not perfect.
10. Love always Perseveres. Love always stands its ground and hold out. It will outlast anything. It will even love in the face of unrequited love. Real love will last though all sorts of trials, tribulations and stresses.
11. Love is Not Provoked. This means that love has a long fuse. It does not become irritated and angry. It is not easily offended.
12. Love does not seek its own. This is the heart of love. Love is other-centred rather than self- centred. Love says, “I love you, I want to give to you.” Selfishness says, “I love you, I want you!”
13. Love does not act unbecomingly. This means that love does not behave disgracefully, dishonourably or indecently. It does not embarrass others by its action. It is characterised by tact and sensitivity. This also means that love should have good manner. Be sure to do little things like opening doors for your girl, or offering her your arm when you walk together.
14. Lastly, Love is forgiving. This is a MUST for a successful love story. If a guy is not willing to forgive and forget when his girlfriend is one hour late, he is not exhibiting love. Love doesn’t hold grudges when it has been
wronged. It doesn’t remain resentful.
** Remember this: Love forgets past failures and sins. **
Filed Under (Uncategorized) by evonhon on 16-07-2008Are you really in love? Or do you think that you are in love?
There is a big difference between Love and infatuation. Some people can’t tell the difference, thinking they are in love but really it is a deep infatuation. Infatuation is instant desire - one set of glands calling to another.
Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows, one day at a time.
Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy.
There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine too closely. It might spoil the dream.
Love is the quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by their presence, even when they are away.
Miles do not separate you. You have so many wonderful little films in your head that you keep replaying.
But near or far, you know they are yours, and you can wait.
Infatuation says, “We must get married right away. I can’t risk losing them.”
Love says, “Be patient. Don’t panic. Plan your future with confidence.”
Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are together, you hope it will end in intimacy.
Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship, which makes sex so much sweeter. You must be friends before you can be lovers.
Infatuation lacks confidence. When they’re away, you wonder if they’re cheating. Sometimes, you check.
Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. They feel your trust, and it makes them even more trustworthy.
Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret, but love never steers you in the wrong direction.
Love is an upper. It makes you feel whole. It completes the circle. It fills the empty space in your heart.
Love is elevating. It lifts you up. It makes you look up. It makes you think up.
It makes you a better person than you were before. If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you don’t have. If there is no love in your life, whatever else there is has a lot less meaning. The secret of our being is not only to live but to have something to live for.
INFATUATION
Infatuation is a feeling; real love involves a commitment also. Infatuation is just love of emotion. Real love, though, is love of devotion. Only the emotions are affected in infatuation, but in real love both the emotions and the will are involved. Next, a person “fall into” infatuation, but “grows into” real love.
Guys, have you ever seen a girl who was so beautiful that you thought you’d faint?
This is infatuation! It is based totally on physical attraction. often you don’t know much in-depth about the person you so-called love. Thus, infatuation is mostly biological. Also remember, never tell a girl you love her, unless you are willing to marry her.
Then, infatuation is basically selfish where real love is basically selfless.Infatuation is more interested in satisfying yourself and the feeling than it is in the other person.
Real love is primarily interested in the other person. It seeks to give instead of get.. Love unselfishly seeks the highest good for the other person.
Lastly, infatuation is weakened by time and separation where real love is strengthened by time and separation.
This does not mean that there will be no pain in separation. On the contrary, there is great pain in separation if
you are truly in love.
LOVE
Now you know what is infatuation, we will go on to discuss about the details of a true love. Love is patient. The word translated “patient” means to wait patiently for the fulfilment of expectations.
When you have difficulty dating this girl and she does not want to come out, if you truly love her, you will not complain and blame her, you must look at the situation from her point of view - maybe she is having some problems which prevented her from coming out. You must react to it with patience and understanding.
Next, have you ever met someone you liked so much that you wanted to push the relationship and make it progress faster? Sure you have! Love, however, is willing to give a relationship time to grow at a natural pace.
It does not push but is willing to wait for the relationship to grow at a rate that is satisfactory to both parties.
Love is Kind Love seeks to encourage and build up others. It respects the feelings and emotions of others..
It finds its greatest satisfaction in making others happy.
You can do the following:
1. Give one another things such as gifts and encouragement cards.
2. Compliment one another. Magnify the other party’s strength.
3. Listen to one another. Pay close attention to what each of you has to say and make each other feel that what each says is important.
4. Treat one another special in public. Compliment and encourage one another sincerely in the presence of others.
5. Love is Not Jealous. Jealousy usually indicates an insecure and immature heart. Love wants the best for others, but jealousy is possessive. Jealous is reflected in the childish statement, “If he is going to talk to her, then he can just forget
about me!” Often, one person wants to totally possess the other and to restrict her relationships with others.
6. Love is not about bragging. Love is not a windbag and is not anxious to impress. Often a guy will brag to a girl, trying to impress her so that she will like him. A truly great person, however, does not need to exalt himself! Others will exalt him.
7. Love is Not Arrogant. Love is not conceited, boastful,cocky, or stuck-up. Love, instead, is humble and has a servant attitude. Sometimes, a guy may come across to a girl with an “I can take you or leave you” attitude. His demeanour implies, “You ought to be thankful that somebody as neat as me is dating you.” Of course, this is not love.
8. Love always covers. This word cover means to pass over in silence, to keep confidential.
9. Love is patient with the faults of others. It doesn’t criticise and broadcast to the world the faults of others.
Love is there even when it knows the other is not perfect.
10. Love always Perseveres. Love always stands its ground and hold out. It will outlast anything. It will even love in the face of unrequited love. Real love will last though all sorts of trials, tribulations and stresses.
11. Love is Not Provoked. This means that love has a long fuse. It does not become irritated and angry. It is not easily offended.
12. Love does not seek its own. This is the heart of love. Love is other-centred rather than self- centred. Love says, “I love you, I want to give to you.” Selfishness says, “I love you, I want you!”
13. Love does not act unbecomingly. This means that love does not behave disgracefully, dishonourably or indecently. It does not embarrass others by its action. It is characterised by tact and sensitivity. This also means that love should have good manner. Be sure to do little things like opening doors for your girl, or offering her your arm when you walk together.
14. Lastly, Love is forgiving. This is a MUST for a successful love story. If a guy is not willing to forgive and forget when his girlfriend is one hour late, he is not exhibiting love. Love doesn’t hold grudges when it has been
wronged. It doesn’t remain resentful.
** Remember this: Love forgets past failures and sins. **
Saturday, September 27, 2008
My life... for sem break~
Have anyone wonder... 2 jobs in 1 day can be done? one sales one just like a slave doing those shit jobs? well i been through this kinda life... morning digi till nite 9pm... 11am starts work... i feeling funny... why is that digi people needs to employ so much people... now i get it... when i working in it... management problems... do we needs more workers to slacking doing nothing? or we need quality workers... ? some peoples think that working is just like slave for boss... well i amit... but how many people think another way round when working? developing own skills and creativity when working? boss sure like u more when you do so... just like what happens to me... being offered when there are vacancy for digi for me during event or road show outside... but still... there is high chance rejecting...
why? management problems... full timer... if you guys can see... how many of them... really working... i being working for digi... but in 2 sense... one is dealer company... one is from digi HQ... the diff i can see... although u are full timer... for digi HQ... out field... all are same... no slacking allowed... but dealer? wow the staff got diff status... i can see... 50 % staff about that figure... slacking... smoking and delays job when boss not around... when see their boss, faster come and do work... very pro in acting... but sorry... to say that boss isnt that stupid... thats what i can see... if not no need to guide them doing work if they capable of doing works independently...
i dreams to build an own empire ... but will i manage to do so...? i dont really know... but now i find a team... which i can called... for 21 years... not having a really truely friend... till today i feeling... these people i working with in maxis rolling team... are family... we suffers together... we jokes together... we fight together... but one thing , we really care each another...
thats why, i wont drop this job for maxis... not because maxis was so good easy to do, its just that we can know one thing... these people trusted, really friend... will assist me in future... when i have problems....
sales sales sales... its a sales team job... well what i can say... we not really doing sales... but we really having funs... although its just guys... we wont really disturb each another having gf life... as we arent kids who cant understand simple things... we have diff views... but each another understand each another view...
the best part, we are not slacking alone by selfishness... if wan off, we pack and off duty together... not by one or few slacking in front of others part timer...
if a company have these staff... how long it will last? having inefficient workers?
thats a problems... but face it... personally will have an solution... well i have my own solution when i stating this problems...
life full with problems but if you go and face it... you are diff... which in short you can make sure problems wont bothering you but fear to find u... your life will be easier... end for today stories...
why? management problems... full timer... if you guys can see... how many of them... really working... i being working for digi... but in 2 sense... one is dealer company... one is from digi HQ... the diff i can see... although u are full timer... for digi HQ... out field... all are same... no slacking allowed... but dealer? wow the staff got diff status... i can see... 50 % staff about that figure... slacking... smoking and delays job when boss not around... when see their boss, faster come and do work... very pro in acting... but sorry... to say that boss isnt that stupid... thats what i can see... if not no need to guide them doing work if they capable of doing works independently...
i dreams to build an own empire ... but will i manage to do so...? i dont really know... but now i find a team... which i can called... for 21 years... not having a really truely friend... till today i feeling... these people i working with in maxis rolling team... are family... we suffers together... we jokes together... we fight together... but one thing , we really care each another...
thats why, i wont drop this job for maxis... not because maxis was so good easy to do, its just that we can know one thing... these people trusted, really friend... will assist me in future... when i have problems....
sales sales sales... its a sales team job... well what i can say... we not really doing sales... but we really having funs... although its just guys... we wont really disturb each another having gf life... as we arent kids who cant understand simple things... we have diff views... but each another understand each another view...
the best part, we are not slacking alone by selfishness... if wan off, we pack and off duty together... not by one or few slacking in front of others part timer...
if a company have these staff... how long it will last? having inefficient workers?
thats a problems... but face it... personally will have an solution... well i have my own solution when i stating this problems...
life full with problems but if you go and face it... you are diff... which in short you can make sure problems wont bothering you but fear to find u... your life will be easier... end for today stories...
Thursday, August 21, 2008
hate being single...
everyday walking around... i can see alot lover holding hand walking around... well may b till now i still not used to b single...
single hv the freedom but still it makes alot diff for me as i want a gf who really can support me... i scare i cant bear alone anymore... i just tiring to stand alone... as i dun like the feeling... of bearing everything alone... when i really needs someone to talk to yet i cant find anyone... as no one can be trusted... my surrounding full of backstabbers... knowing too much about me end up will backstab me... well i just try to express out abit... cause i cant tell everything here...
single hv the freedom but still it makes alot diff for me as i want a gf who really can support me... i scare i cant bear alone anymore... i just tiring to stand alone... as i dun like the feeling... of bearing everything alone... when i really needs someone to talk to yet i cant find anyone... as no one can be trusted... my surrounding full of backstabbers... knowing too much about me end up will backstab me... well i just try to express out abit... cause i cant tell everything here...
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
SmS received... where i going to delete it...
28 may 2008 8.56 pm from Carol
Dear.. i really wish to go back.. but i hv no more faith on our love anymore.. i cant bear loneliness.. Wait after u finish studying and hv a good job later mayb our relationship will be more stable if start over again.. Pls.. always remember that i'll always stay beside u no matter wat happen! I'm sorry i din help u to celebrate ur b'day well.. but i'll try to celebrate ur b'day wit u every yr...
* will this really truth ? i dun think so now...
29 may 2008 4.20am
i dun get it.. when we were together we also lonely all the time, but y nw u cant get use to it? Juz bcoz i'm no longer ur gf? i'm not home till next sat.. these period u must take care of urself coz i cant go find u whenever u r not ok.. if u send me msg i might not be able to reply u also.. so take care
*even now i still cant get used to it but i working hard to letting go...
13 Jun 08 1.24 pm
I'm sorry for hurting u that much.. life must go on no matter wat .. the earth won stop spinning bcoz of ur sadness.. the sun will still rise and set everyday.. do u feel that our world is going to end soon? value each of the remaining day in life to make other people around u happy.. stop being so self-centered.. there'r uncountable no. of people suffering more than u do out there.. do other good things rather than keep mourning on useless thing k?
*no comment...
20 Jun 08 11.16 am
Y u so scared to be alone? freedom u dun like? can do watever u wan..sometimes to achieve success u need to b alone, coz less burden.. i cant do anythi (msg censored and losing part... )
* no comment as i cant get full msg version...
6 july 08 9.47am
i also just came back from a camp.. din reply u immediately coz really tired and things are a little rush.. well.. ur gf is vy lucky to hv u but the lucky girl is not me anymore.. we r over.. i cant in back to u anymore coz i've hurt u too deep.. hope u live happily there .. i guess mind will nvr be
* still the same as late reply sms.. well its supprisingly you tell ur mum i stingy in smsing... funny... spreading all around said i am how terrible... good job... but i am who i am... just do it if u like to do so... well lucky anot my gf i duno but i try my best to gib wht i can to her... you still the same coward where things done cant be undone why dont do recovery part... why you never think of doing something to repay? yours life super happily as you choose dump me 8 days bfore my birthday and now hv wht u wan... everyday whom you can see ... such a great bf... u have ... who buy meals for u and blah blah blah... congrats... live happily... and stop said u wont live happily as u super high demanding....
7 july 08 1.12am
i'm really glad 2 hear u've learnt that much.. u dun hv to say sorry as i'm the one always hurting u.. after leaving u only i found how wrong i am not to appreciate all the things u've done for me.. life is just the same as b4 here.. nth change same old boring n meaningless lifestyle, well , no need to worry bout me.. i,ve learnt how to take care of myself after being here for so long time.. we r all alone in this world, no one can help except ourselve
* sorry with no action to repay i dun think the sorry worth to accept... well its human nature not to appreciate things on the front of the eye... but when lost it you know how much it means to you... well frankly people feels you might wanna come back for me but wht u did by this sms its making me b like a dummy for 1 week worry anything bad about u...
thanks all my friends supported me and i will not get anymore news from u... no matter how much i wanna noe wht happen to you... so as u said u wan ur life b alone? well you wont with your new bf...
wht i receive 1 week later from your msn its about you regret hurt me that much and thats all... so means this another tricks? to make me more suffer? haha you done a great job...
thanks for the bad feeling ... after fallen down and you make me again fallen...
well i cant b fooled again and again and again... try more and i will learn more ...
now i delete all your msg... i will clear alot your memories in my mind to let u go... so hv ur hapi life in ur penang institute and i hv my life of single in ktar ...
really thanks for spoiling my life by breaking up cause your action make me know more friends who helps me alot ... really but sorry to said your action cause me lost alot stuff... my industrial training... really must thank u for spoil it as i cant use it...
and really tahnks for creating this misunderstanding for the last 2 sms you able make me letting u go easier...
Dear.. i really wish to go back.. but i hv no more faith on our love anymore.. i cant bear loneliness.. Wait after u finish studying and hv a good job later mayb our relationship will be more stable if start over again.. Pls.. always remember that i'll always stay beside u no matter wat happen! I'm sorry i din help u to celebrate ur b'day well.. but i'll try to celebrate ur b'day wit u every yr...
* will this really truth ? i dun think so now...
29 may 2008 4.20am
i dun get it.. when we were together we also lonely all the time, but y nw u cant get use to it? Juz bcoz i'm no longer ur gf? i'm not home till next sat.. these period u must take care of urself coz i cant go find u whenever u r not ok.. if u send me msg i might not be able to reply u also.. so take care
*even now i still cant get used to it but i working hard to letting go...
13 Jun 08 1.24 pm
I'm sorry for hurting u that much.. life must go on no matter wat .. the earth won stop spinning bcoz of ur sadness.. the sun will still rise and set everyday.. do u feel that our world is going to end soon? value each of the remaining day in life to make other people around u happy.. stop being so self-centered.. there'r uncountable no. of people suffering more than u do out there.. do other good things rather than keep mourning on useless thing k?
*no comment...
20 Jun 08 11.16 am
Y u so scared to be alone? freedom u dun like? can do watever u wan..sometimes to achieve success u need to b alone, coz less burden.. i cant do anythi (msg censored and losing part... )
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6 july 08 9.47am
i also just came back from a camp.. din reply u immediately coz really tired and things are a little rush.. well.. ur gf is vy lucky to hv u but the lucky girl is not me anymore.. we r over.. i cant in back to u anymore coz i've hurt u too deep.. hope u live happily there .. i guess mind will nvr be
* still the same as late reply sms.. well its supprisingly you tell ur mum i stingy in smsing... funny... spreading all around said i am how terrible... good job... but i am who i am... just do it if u like to do so... well lucky anot my gf i duno but i try my best to gib wht i can to her... you still the same coward where things done cant be undone why dont do recovery part... why you never think of doing something to repay? yours life super happily as you choose dump me 8 days bfore my birthday and now hv wht u wan... everyday whom you can see ... such a great bf... u have ... who buy meals for u and blah blah blah... congrats... live happily... and stop said u wont live happily as u super high demanding....
7 july 08 1.12am
i'm really glad 2 hear u've learnt that much.. u dun hv to say sorry as i'm the one always hurting u.. after leaving u only i found how wrong i am not to appreciate all the things u've done for me.. life is just the same as b4 here.. nth change same old boring n meaningless lifestyle, well , no need to worry bout me.. i,ve learnt how to take care of myself after being here for so long time.. we r all alone in this world, no one can help except ourselve
* sorry with no action to repay i dun think the sorry worth to accept... well its human nature not to appreciate things on the front of the eye... but when lost it you know how much it means to you... well frankly people feels you might wanna come back for me but wht u did by this sms its making me b like a dummy for 1 week worry anything bad about u...
thanks all my friends supported me and i will not get anymore news from u... no matter how much i wanna noe wht happen to you... so as u said u wan ur life b alone? well you wont with your new bf...
wht i receive 1 week later from your msn its about you regret hurt me that much and thats all... so means this another tricks? to make me more suffer? haha you done a great job...
thanks for the bad feeling ... after fallen down and you make me again fallen...
well i cant b fooled again and again and again... try more and i will learn more ...
now i delete all your msg... i will clear alot your memories in my mind to let u go... so hv ur hapi life in ur penang institute and i hv my life of single in ktar ...
really thanks for spoiling my life by breaking up cause your action make me know more friends who helps me alot ... really but sorry to said your action cause me lost alot stuff... my industrial training... really must thank u for spoil it as i cant use it...
and really tahnks for creating this misunderstanding for the last 2 sms you able make me letting u go easier...
A friend Story
well this is a gal story real happening ... just to help me feels better...
x ]: let me tell u bout my ex
x ]: he went t over nite at gals place few times
x ]: kiss gal when gudbye
x ]: hug them infront of me
x ]: tickle other gals infront of me
x ]: controling all de time
x ]: *me
x ]: i cant even step out from my house
x ]: he wil gt crazy mad
x ]: even went out
x ]: must ask fer permissiong from him
x ]: cant back late than 7
x ]: he will screwed me up like hell
x ]: when fight up
x ]: he will look fer me when de mid nite even it is 4
x ]: i cant rejected his call
x ]: not even once
x ]: but he always dun answer my calls
x ]: he not even find me once fer a month
x ]: said not free n all those craps
x ]: but lefting times fer others so called frens go genting pd fer fun
x ]: he always scolded me like hell infront of my frens
x ]: u thk i will b better fer u?
x ]: but i dun left him cos i love him n i noe he still do
x ]: but coz we get together since form 3
x ]: n im acting a pet for him listen watever he said n he want to
x ]: but after i graduted from my secondary
x ]: i started to keep touch others
x ]: n he dunn like
x ]: he dun even let me gt other males frens
x ]: tis is so called manners
x ]: u noe???!!!
x ]: but i still love him alot
x ]: so do u thk u will b suffer than me?
x ]: so pls stop complaining coz u make me thk of him
x ]: u noe even now
x ]: after break up fer a years
x ]: he still controling me by if i blog bout other guys
x ]: he will call me out n said..
x ]: "u noe , i dun like it u with others"
x ]: i noe i still cant left it out
x ]: being telling myself fer a millions time
x ]: once he calls
x ]: i wanted to reject
x ]: but i cant
x ]: he asked to out
x ]: i feel like duno how to reject
x ]: i wanted to meet up hm
x ]: tat's not wat i want..but i cant!
x ]: who i can tell?
x ]: even i havin others now
x ]: i still cant forgt bout him
x ]: n he still noe bout it
x ]: even my bf oso asked me bout tis
x ]: it been a years plus broke up with him
x ]: fater broke up
x ]: u noe..i tried beg him
x ]: lost sleep fer 2 months
x ]: fall sick almost every months
x ]: but no one around me noe wat's going on
x ]: not even my best frens
x ]: so do u thk u still in a mess situation?
x ]: b happy everyday like i do.
x ]: dun ever thk back dy
x ]: now i being happy with my bf.even i still love tat sux guy
x ]: i will try my best ti let him go
there its a long story where below parts too private where i cant post... *as i lazy editing....
to my ex, please see wht you should b complaining... this is wht called complaining...
but still my this friend, love the awful guy alot...
i m letting you go.. till there is nothing left... as i dont really know whts make me should still keep the love of you as you stated our love its our memory and your heart no longer love me anymore...
well treating me a dummy and tell me that regreted that you dont appriciate me and live will never be happy again... all this your great lies as you get someone so nice to you...
your choice not to reply sms and pick up call making me worry for 1 week for nothing really make me like a dummy... well its okie... a dummy must wake from a dream of foolish love of yours and mine... well the dummy its me.. good bye ... continue with your hapi life ...
x ]: let me tell u bout my ex
x ]: he went t over nite at gals place few times
x ]: kiss gal when gudbye
x ]: hug them infront of me
x ]: tickle other gals infront of me
x ]: controling all de time
x ]: *me
x ]: i cant even step out from my house
x ]: he wil gt crazy mad
x ]: even went out
x ]: must ask fer permissiong from him
x ]: cant back late than 7
x ]: he will screwed me up like hell
x ]: when fight up
x ]: he will look fer me when de mid nite even it is 4
x ]: i cant rejected his call
x ]: not even once
x ]: but he always dun answer my calls
x ]: he not even find me once fer a month
x ]: said not free n all those craps
x ]: but lefting times fer others so called frens go genting pd fer fun
x ]: he always scolded me like hell infront of my frens
x ]: u thk i will b better fer u?
x ]: but i dun left him cos i love him n i noe he still do
x ]: but coz we get together since form 3
x ]: n im acting a pet for him listen watever he said n he want to
x ]: but after i graduted from my secondary
x ]: i started to keep touch others
x ]: n he dunn like
x ]: he dun even let me gt other males frens
x ]: tis is so called manners
x ]: u noe???!!!
x ]: but i still love him alot
x ]: so do u thk u will b suffer than me?
x ]: so pls stop complaining coz u make me thk of him
x ]: u noe even now
x ]: after break up fer a years
x ]: he still controling me by if i blog bout other guys
x ]: he will call me out n said..
x ]: "u noe , i dun like it u with others"
x ]: i noe i still cant left it out
x ]: being telling myself fer a millions time
x ]: once he calls
x ]: i wanted to reject
x ]: but i cant
x ]: he asked to out
x ]: i feel like duno how to reject
x ]: i wanted to meet up hm
x ]: tat's not wat i want..but i cant!
x ]: who i can tell?
x ]: even i havin others now
x ]: i still cant forgt bout him
x ]: n he still noe bout it
x ]: even my bf oso asked me bout tis
x ]: it been a years plus broke up with him
x ]: fater broke up
x ]: u noe..i tried beg him
x ]: lost sleep fer 2 months
x ]: fall sick almost every months
x ]: but no one around me noe wat's going on
x ]: not even my best frens
x ]: so do u thk u still in a mess situation?
x ]: b happy everyday like i do.
x ]: dun ever thk back dy
x ]: now i being happy with my bf.even i still love tat sux guy
x ]: i will try my best ti let him go
there its a long story where below parts too private where i cant post... *as i lazy editing....
to my ex, please see wht you should b complaining... this is wht called complaining...
but still my this friend, love the awful guy alot...
i m letting you go.. till there is nothing left... as i dont really know whts make me should still keep the love of you as you stated our love its our memory and your heart no longer love me anymore...
well treating me a dummy and tell me that regreted that you dont appriciate me and live will never be happy again... all this your great lies as you get someone so nice to you...
your choice not to reply sms and pick up call making me worry for 1 week for nothing really make me like a dummy... well its okie... a dummy must wake from a dream of foolish love of yours and mine... well the dummy its me.. good bye ... continue with your hapi life ...
Saturday, July 12, 2008
JUST WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST
JUST WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST
(Randy VanWarmer)
You packed in the morning and I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
But I miss you more than I
Missed you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
Now most every morning I
Stare out the window and I
Think about where you might be
I've written you letters
That I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me
'Cause I need you more than I
Needed before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
[Instrumental Interlude]
You packed in the morning I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
Now I love you more than I
Loved you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
Oh, yeah
You left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me
Just when I needed you most
Just When I Needed You Most - Bread Music Code
(Randy VanWarmer)
You packed in the morning and I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
But I miss you more than I
Missed you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
Now most every morning I
Stare out the window and I
Think about where you might be
I've written you letters
That I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me
'Cause I need you more than I
Needed before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
[Instrumental Interlude]
You packed in the morning I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
Now I love you more than I
Loved you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
Oh, yeah
You left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me
Just when I needed you most
Just When I Needed You Most - Bread Music Code
dedicated to my ex... JUST WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST
JUST WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST
(Randy VanWarmer)
You packed in the morning and I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
But I miss you more than I
Missed you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
Now most every morning I
Stare out the window and I
Think about where you might be
I've written you letters
That I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me
'Cause I need you more than I
Needed before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
[Instrumental Interlude]
You packed in the morning I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
Now I love you more than I
Loved you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
Oh, yeah
You left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me
Just when I needed you most
(Randy VanWarmer)
You packed in the morning and I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
But I miss you more than I
Missed you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
Now most every morning I
Stare out the window and I
Think about where you might be
I've written you letters
That I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me
'Cause I need you more than I
Needed before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
[Instrumental Interlude]
You packed in the morning I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
Now I love you more than I
Loved you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
Oh, yeah
You left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me
Just when I needed you most
Friday, July 11, 2008
2-4 JULY 2008 DIGI CAMP
well i separated it in 3 diff days...
2 July...
well i late for it as gathering stated 11.30am... so i take taxi as i couldnt get the bus... well reached the lrt still nid to wait for others... tell u all wht.. the actual time bus arrive is 1pm...
zzzzz swt... why set super duper early time meet up le... haihz...
wasted my taxi money...
we reached kl sentral at duno wht time but its still early...
well the bus come for us also late... so swt le... waited even longer zzzz...
reached the camp and the lunch so nice.... malay food again le... vy sien...
and all those ice breaking ar all event cancel as delay occured...
well things arent like planned earlier...
well we reached there about 3 pm and slacked for few hours at the canteen (HQ) for the event as we need to know which room we are in ... (as for me... camp 5 room rumah perlis... when u go in u nvr think so sux it is.... )
well we going to the hall duno wht name liao... sorry cause i forget ar...
to meet up u2 kumar... unfortunately... we meet him after dinner... well time wasted again just to wait others U to come the camp... as the bus delayed....
so we enjoy our dinner... (as better than lunch but quantity chicken small and one piece nia sien!)
after dinner we went in hall and start seminar wit U2kumar... well he kinda funny guy ...
hmmm or said that motivater abit sense of humor...
well i choose to b the team leader during the event and choosen my team ... haha... its a random pick... so dun ask me why i pick them as i didnt pick any1 from my college which i known... haha...
well its my honour to have my team 100 % support me ... thanks everyone in yellow converter...
well after in the seminar we went back to the place we stay...
hmmm bbq cooking section
well its sucks as we reach at 12am... and ended on 3 am +...
haihz... when reach back i see alot malay fellow anyhow took those room... well we share but those malay late commer didnt noe wht is respect about....
well dun k them... as useless to care about them...
well the nite bbq its a good memory where we work so hard cook together... guys of yellow converter , when wanna on bbq? haha i waiting this day again....
after bbq for tarcian armis nid to gathering for discussion for game part...
this is tiring and using our time... precious for resting... haihz...
well nvm v all try to cooperate it...
haha....
after meeting take bath sleep at 4 am +...
bout sleeping i wake few time cause tio bite by mosquito on neck and ears... well changed place to sleep and i sleep at corners ...
day 1 ended....
day 2... well early mornings... we wake ... and wear official T shirt for going the Digi HQ...
wow i lost my voice terribly... as i nid to shout... well to earn u2kumar cash for grad.. i nid to shout... we shout shout shout only get not much about 6.8 mil if not mistaken... kinda sad to hear that in morning part...
well we should work harder to reach it...
after lunch everything... in the evening we went to digi HQ center (this time really digi working place... ) well this is a valuable experience in looking at Digi how they working...
as their working place so so so beautiful haha... can see the pic in friendster....
well the dinner consider better than the we ate earlier... however i cant get the beautiful tart to eat haihz....
well after dinner and everything in DIGI HQ... we went back to the site for the night activities...
in the nite i didnt win any prices for the activity...
but lucky ktar game stall run good condition as pravin deals alot acting movement... haha...
well we all doing stupid things again... chit chatting at camp 7... outside playing sux dame... true or dare... well anson you great asking in doing those shit stuff ... haha.. but its funny to see and hear lur... aha...
well v all sleep outside...
as i too tired 1st down to sleep its me...
3rd day...
its final day and i woke up late summore its freezing cold... zzzz.... well lost my voice and my voice super sexy... however still nid to shout for the u2kumar cash to reach 40 mil minimum...
well no voice how to shout...?
got 1 way... put hand where pressing your throat... like that temporary can shout....
but end up voice vy nice for long time duno can recover anot...
well last day we reached 53.5 mil wow... but tio deducted so ~ 50 mil ... however we manage to surplus the min target 40 mil... i really hope we can reach 80 mil as targeted...
but we not enough work hard as we all tired... with low amount of members...
well final day i really cry... team member said 1 thing to me (its a gal but not chinese.. ) you are great leader there is nothing bad about you.. we all feel happy to have you as our leader... who being your gf will be the lucky one... * remarks i m single and i cried on the spot... well i told her i dont have a gf ...
we all grad as yellow armies... well alot details i not included as i getting lower mood to write it out.. sorry ....
well we all went back safely... and have pool game i mean i watching them play... wit sylvester and anson....
thats all
2 July...
well i late for it as gathering stated 11.30am... so i take taxi as i couldnt get the bus... well reached the lrt still nid to wait for others... tell u all wht.. the actual time bus arrive is 1pm...
zzzzz swt... why set super duper early time meet up le... haihz...
wasted my taxi money...
we reached kl sentral at duno wht time but its still early...
well the bus come for us also late... so swt le... waited even longer zzzz...
reached the camp and the lunch so nice.... malay food again le... vy sien...
and all those ice breaking ar all event cancel as delay occured...
well things arent like planned earlier...
well we reached there about 3 pm and slacked for few hours at the canteen (HQ) for the event as we need to know which room we are in ... (as for me... camp 5 room rumah perlis... when u go in u nvr think so sux it is.... )
well we going to the hall duno wht name liao... sorry cause i forget ar...
to meet up u2 kumar... unfortunately... we meet him after dinner... well time wasted again just to wait others U to come the camp... as the bus delayed....
so we enjoy our dinner... (as better than lunch but quantity chicken small and one piece nia sien!)
after dinner we went in hall and start seminar wit U2kumar... well he kinda funny guy ...
hmmm or said that motivater abit sense of humor...
well i choose to b the team leader during the event and choosen my team ... haha... its a random pick... so dun ask me why i pick them as i didnt pick any1 from my college which i known... haha...
well its my honour to have my team 100 % support me ... thanks everyone in yellow converter...
well after in the seminar we went back to the place we stay...
hmmm bbq cooking section
well its sucks as we reach at 12am... and ended on 3 am +...
haihz... when reach back i see alot malay fellow anyhow took those room... well we share but those malay late commer didnt noe wht is respect about....
well dun k them... as useless to care about them...
well the nite bbq its a good memory where we work so hard cook together... guys of yellow converter , when wanna on bbq? haha i waiting this day again....
after bbq for tarcian armis nid to gathering for discussion for game part...
this is tiring and using our time... precious for resting... haihz...
well nvm v all try to cooperate it...
haha....
after meeting take bath sleep at 4 am +...
bout sleeping i wake few time cause tio bite by mosquito on neck and ears... well changed place to sleep and i sleep at corners ...
day 1 ended....
day 2... well early mornings... we wake ... and wear official T shirt for going the Digi HQ...
wow i lost my voice terribly... as i nid to shout... well to earn u2kumar cash for grad.. i nid to shout... we shout shout shout only get not much about 6.8 mil if not mistaken... kinda sad to hear that in morning part...
well we should work harder to reach it...
after lunch everything... in the evening we went to digi HQ center (this time really digi working place... ) well this is a valuable experience in looking at Digi how they working...
as their working place so so so beautiful haha... can see the pic in friendster....
well the dinner consider better than the we ate earlier... however i cant get the beautiful tart to eat haihz....
well after dinner and everything in DIGI HQ... we went back to the site for the night activities...
in the nite i didnt win any prices for the activity...
but lucky ktar game stall run good condition as pravin deals alot acting movement... haha...
well we all doing stupid things again... chit chatting at camp 7... outside playing sux dame... true or dare... well anson you great asking in doing those shit stuff ... haha.. but its funny to see and hear lur... aha...
well v all sleep outside...
as i too tired 1st down to sleep its me...
3rd day...
its final day and i woke up late summore its freezing cold... zzzz.... well lost my voice and my voice super sexy... however still nid to shout for the u2kumar cash to reach 40 mil minimum...
well no voice how to shout...?
got 1 way... put hand where pressing your throat... like that temporary can shout....
but end up voice vy nice for long time duno can recover anot...
well last day we reached 53.5 mil wow... but tio deducted so ~ 50 mil ... however we manage to surplus the min target 40 mil... i really hope we can reach 80 mil as targeted...
but we not enough work hard as we all tired... with low amount of members...
well final day i really cry... team member said 1 thing to me (its a gal but not chinese.. ) you are great leader there is nothing bad about you.. we all feel happy to have you as our leader... who being your gf will be the lucky one... * remarks i m single and i cried on the spot... well i told her i dont have a gf ...
we all grad as yellow armies... well alot details i not included as i getting lower mood to write it out.. sorry ....
well we all went back safely... and have pool game i mean i watching them play... wit sylvester and anson....
thats all
Sunday, June 29, 2008
life must go on
well its been quite long i loses her... life must continue no matter what...
well there are some memories which cant be forgotten... but the memorises i try to remove cant be done so... well i guess let the time keep the memorises in deep of my heart as i appriciate her well but she cant sense it and doesnt appriciate it...
well 2-4th july leaving for digi camp... a motivation leadership camp for yellow armies...
been thinking... is it we i mean those going for the camp need to train to be apart of the yellow man...? i dun like to b yellow man as they cant talk... well u can see all advertisement or pc fair where those yellow man doesnt say a single words.... T.T"
i kinda talkative person will have alot difficulties when dealing wit this...
well july will be coming soon... tomolo its july.... well looking forward for new life as i found someone quite cute to b friend wit in life... hope me and the person can b good friends haha...
thats all for today...
well there are some memories which cant be forgotten... but the memorises i try to remove cant be done so... well i guess let the time keep the memorises in deep of my heart as i appriciate her well but she cant sense it and doesnt appriciate it...
well 2-4th july leaving for digi camp... a motivation leadership camp for yellow armies...
been thinking... is it we i mean those going for the camp need to train to be apart of the yellow man...? i dun like to b yellow man as they cant talk... well u can see all advertisement or pc fair where those yellow man doesnt say a single words.... T.T"
i kinda talkative person will have alot difficulties when dealing wit this...
well july will be coming soon... tomolo its july.... well looking forward for new life as i found someone quite cute to b friend wit in life... hope me and the person can b good friends haha...
thats all for today...
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Studies....
well... now its my final year 1st sem... 2 more sem to go i might grad as a degree students...
i being let go of my studies cause cant focus due to love stuff...
may b now i can focus more on my studies as i need to work hard...
now i still wondering what to do for my final year project... may be i just need to think some sort of better topic to write more for a seminar and another topic for the final year project...
life when full of studies its dull
as malaysian education system mostly emphasize on book worm memorizing... its hard for me to adapt as i not a book worm...
well guess i write this much for now... kinda tired to write more...
i being let go of my studies cause cant focus due to love stuff...
may b now i can focus more on my studies as i need to work hard...
now i still wondering what to do for my final year project... may be i just need to think some sort of better topic to write more for a seminar and another topic for the final year project...
life when full of studies its dull
as malaysian education system mostly emphasize on book worm memorizing... its hard for me to adapt as i not a book worm...
well guess i write this much for now... kinda tired to write more...
2 days more...
well... now its saturday... tomolo she will be going back to BM for her course...
its a hardly bearing feeling for me to lose her...
i might can say not a good bf as wht i thinking just too over extreme where doesnt really deeply into wht she wants... trying my best alone wont work afterall... as she have said long time already losing our love.... i feeling love just sux when having only one person who wish to continue... and thats me... but i will try to giving up on her... as i dont feel she will back for me after so many conversation between me and her...
in the end i hope my love to her is to wish her eternity hapiness as we mostly wont become lover again, although i used to think of want her to be my wife in future....
well now i wish to have more friends as i giving up bfore due to i feel she quite sensitive to this...
i gain freedom back but losing her... may be this is considered as a barter trade...
its a hardly bearing feeling for me to lose her...
i might can say not a good bf as wht i thinking just too over extreme where doesnt really deeply into wht she wants... trying my best alone wont work afterall... as she have said long time already losing our love.... i feeling love just sux when having only one person who wish to continue... and thats me... but i will try to giving up on her... as i dont feel she will back for me after so many conversation between me and her...
in the end i hope my love to her is to wish her eternity hapiness as we mostly wont become lover again, although i used to think of want her to be my wife in future....
well now i wish to have more friends as i giving up bfore due to i feel she quite sensitive to this...
i gain freedom back but losing her... may be this is considered as a barter trade...
Thursday, June 12, 2008
1st lady - baby i love you
baby i love you and i'll never let you go
but if i have to boy i think that you should know
all the love we made can never be erased
and i promise you that you will never be replaced(2x)
i love you ,yes i do
i'll be withhere you as long as you want me to
until(until) the end(the end) of time
from the day i met you i knew we'd be together
and now i know i wanna be with you forever
i wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids
thinking never compared to the feeling of your kisses
i can say im truly happy to this day
you made think i better live my life everyday
there's never been a doubt in my mind
that i regret ever having you by my side
but if the day comes that i have to let you go
i think there's somthin' i should probably let you know
i enjoyed everyday that i spend with you
and i will miss you but im happy that i had you at all
baby i love you and i'll never let you go
but if i have to boy i think that you should know
all the love we made can never be erased
and i promise you that you will never be replaced(2X)
i love you ohh yes i do
ill be with you as long as you want me to
until the end of time
My beloved girlfriend, limcarol
Well, here will just written the brief version what happens to me ....
as introduction, my birthday will be on the 15th of may, but, my ex, limcarol just ask for breaking up due to in need of starting a new relationship with another guy....
well, now i am alright abit, but that duration i facing... not many will believe i would think of commiting suicide... but i do... with the chemicals in my industrial training....
the 8 days before my birthday, where i still in industrial training.... i burn my hands due to touching the metal iron door... as i told her, she have no feelings after all.... may be this is what love called... when you no longer the one i love, even you die its non of my business...
today i meet her up, as she can say that wont have any more hope to be together again... as i try to beg her back for me....
is it that near 2 years relationship can just let go like this? i cant do so.....
thats why i suffering in the night where i cant sleep... i just feel cant lose of her....
but i should be strong and giving up on her... as she has spoken wont be back for me....
as introduction, my birthday will be on the 15th of may, but, my ex, limcarol just ask for breaking up due to in need of starting a new relationship with another guy....
well, now i am alright abit, but that duration i facing... not many will believe i would think of commiting suicide... but i do... with the chemicals in my industrial training....
the 8 days before my birthday, where i still in industrial training.... i burn my hands due to touching the metal iron door... as i told her, she have no feelings after all.... may be this is what love called... when you no longer the one i love, even you die its non of my business...
today i meet her up, as she can say that wont have any more hope to be together again... as i try to beg her back for me....
is it that near 2 years relationship can just let go like this? i cant do so.....
thats why i suffering in the night where i cant sleep... i just feel cant lose of her....
but i should be strong and giving up on her... as she has spoken wont be back for me....
My Details
Hi to everyone... 1st post will be more regarding to myself...
I am Justin Low Kwok Kheng, or in short can call me Justin...
if this name too common, can call me Jus Tin, Just In or others which u all can think of...
now i am 21 years old (2008) born in the year of 1987(rabbit)
my birthday is on the 15th may (taurus)
well now i having final year degree in science ( chemistry and biology ) under campbell university and TARC....
as i not really working for my results previously in college, my results might seems terrible...
alot factors causes myself to neglet in studies but now i working hard on it.....
i am from kl malaysia, where actual location will be taman sri rampai , nearby wangsa maju area.
i think thats all for brief introduction and thanks for reading this 1st blog post....
have a nice day....
I am Justin Low Kwok Kheng, or in short can call me Justin...
if this name too common, can call me Jus Tin, Just In or others which u all can think of...
now i am 21 years old (2008) born in the year of 1987(rabbit)
my birthday is on the 15th may (taurus)
well now i having final year degree in science ( chemistry and biology ) under campbell university and TARC....
as i not really working for my results previously in college, my results might seems terrible...
alot factors causes myself to neglet in studies but now i working hard on it.....
i am from kl malaysia, where actual location will be taman sri rampai , nearby wangsa maju area.
i think thats all for brief introduction and thanks for reading this 1st blog post....
have a nice day....
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