life must go on

well its been quite long i loses her... life must continue no matter what...
well there are some memories which cant be forgotten... but the memorises i try to remove cant be done so... well i guess let the time keep the memorises in deep of my heart as i appriciate her well but she cant sense it and doesnt appriciate it...

well 2-4th july leaving for digi camp... a motivation leadership camp for yellow armies...
been thinking... is it we i mean those going for the camp need to train to be apart of the yellow man...? i dun like to b yellow man as they cant talk... well u can see all advertisement or pc fair where those yellow man doesnt say a single words.... T.T"
i kinda talkative person will have alot difficulties when dealing wit this...

well july will be coming soon... tomolo its july.... well looking forward for new life as i found someone quite cute to b friend wit in life... hope me and the person can b good friends haha...

thats all for today...

Studies....

well... now its my final year 1st sem... 2 more sem to go i might grad as a degree students...
i being let go of my studies cause cant focus due to love stuff...
may b now i can focus more on my studies as i need to work hard...

now i still wondering what to do for my final year project... may be i just need to think some sort of better topic to write more for a seminar and another topic for the final year project...
life when full of studies its dull

as malaysian education system mostly emphasize on book worm memorizing... its hard for me to adapt as i not a book worm...

well guess i write this much for now... kinda tired to write more...

2 days more...

well... now its saturday... tomolo she will be going back to BM for her course...
its a hardly bearing feeling for me to lose her...
i might can say not a good bf as wht i thinking just too over extreme where doesnt really deeply into wht she wants... trying my best alone wont work afterall... as she have said long time already losing our love.... i feeling love just sux when having only one person who wish to continue... and thats me... but i will try to giving up on her... as i dont feel she will back for me after so many conversation between me and her...

in the end i hope my love to her is to wish her eternity hapiness as we mostly wont become lover again, although i used to think of want her to be my wife in future....

well now i wish to have more friends as i giving up bfore due to i feel she quite sensitive to this...
i gain freedom back but losing her... may be this is considered as a barter trade...

1st lady - baby i love you

baby i love you and i'll never let you go

but if i have to boy i think that you should know

all the love we made can never be erased

and i promise you that you will never be replaced(2x)
i love you ,yes i do

i'll be withhere you as long as you want me to

until(until) the end(the end) of time
from the day i met you i knew we'd be together

and now i know i wanna be with you forever

i wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids

thinking never compared to the feeling of your kisses
i can say im truly happy to this day

you made think i better live my life everyday

there's never been a doubt in my mind

that i regret ever having you by my side
but if the day comes that i have to let you go

i think there's somthin' i should probably let you know

i enjoyed everyday that i spend with you

and i will miss you but im happy that i had you at all
baby i love you and i'll never let you go

but if i have to boy i think that you should know

all the love we made can never be erased

and i promise you that you will never be replaced(2X)
i love you ohh yes i do

ill be with you as long as you want me to

until the end of time

My beloved girlfriend, limcarol

Well, here will just written the brief version what happens to me ....
as introduction, my birthday will be on the 15th of may, but, my ex, limcarol just ask for breaking up due to in need of starting a new relationship with another guy....

well, now i am alright abit, but that duration i facing... not many will believe i would think of commiting suicide... but i do... with the chemicals in my industrial training....

the 8 days before my birthday, where i still in industrial training.... i burn my hands due to touching the metal iron door... as i told her, she have no feelings after all.... may be this is what love called... when you no longer the one i love, even you die its non of my business...

today i meet her up, as she can say that wont have any more hope to be together again... as i try to beg her back for me....
is it that near 2 years relationship can just let go like this? i cant do so.....
thats why i suffering in the night where i cant sleep... i just feel cant lose of her....
but i should be strong and giving up on her... as she has spoken wont be back for me....

My Details

Hi to everyone... 1st post will be more regarding to myself...
I am Justin Low Kwok Kheng, or in short can call me Justin...
if this name too common, can call me Jus Tin, Just In or others which u all can think of...
now i am 21 years old (2008) born in the year of 1987(rabbit)
my birthday is on the 15th may (taurus)

well now i having final year degree in science ( chemistry and biology ) under campbell university and TARC....
as i not really working for my results previously in college, my results might seems terrible...
alot factors causes myself to neglet in studies but now i working hard on it.....

i am from kl malaysia, where actual location will be taman sri rampai , nearby wangsa maju area.

i think thats all for brief introduction and thanks for reading this 1st blog post....
have a nice day....