28 may 2008 8.56 pm from Carol
Dear.. i really wish to go back.. but i hv no more faith on our love anymore.. i cant bear loneliness.. Wait after u finish studying and hv a good job later mayb our relationship will be more stable if start over again.. Pls.. always remember that i'll always stay beside u no matter wat happen! I'm sorry i din help u to celebrate ur b'day well.. but i'll try to celebrate ur b'day wit u every yr...
* will this really truth ? i dun think so now...
29 may 2008 4.20am
i dun get it.. when we were together we also lonely all the time, but y nw u cant get use to it? Juz bcoz i'm no longer ur gf? i'm not home till next sat.. these period u must take care of urself coz i cant go find u whenever u r not ok.. if u send me msg i might not be able to reply u also.. so take care
*even now i still cant get used to it but i working hard to letting go...
13 Jun 08 1.24 pm
I'm sorry for hurting u that much.. life must go on no matter wat .. the earth won stop spinning bcoz of ur sadness.. the sun will still rise and set everyday.. do u feel that our world is going to end soon? value each of the remaining day in life to make other people around u happy.. stop being so self-centered.. there'r uncountable no. of people suffering more than u do out there.. do other good things rather than keep mourning on useless thing k?
*no comment...
20 Jun 08 11.16 am
Y u so scared to be alone? freedom u dun like? can do watever u wan..sometimes to achieve success u need to b alone, coz less burden.. i cant do anythi (msg censored and losing part... )
* no comment as i cant get full msg version...
6 july 08 9.47am
i also just came back from a camp.. din reply u immediately coz really tired and things are a little rush.. well.. ur gf is vy lucky to hv u but the lucky girl is not me anymore.. we r over.. i cant in back to u anymore coz i've hurt u too deep.. hope u live happily there .. i guess mind will nvr be
* still the same as late reply sms.. well its supprisingly you tell ur mum i stingy in smsing... funny... spreading all around said i am how terrible... good job... but i am who i am... just do it if u like to do so... well lucky anot my gf i duno but i try my best to gib wht i can to her... you still the same coward where things done cant be undone why dont do recovery part... why you never think of doing something to repay? yours life super happily as you choose dump me 8 days bfore my birthday and now hv wht u wan... everyday whom you can see ... such a great bf... u have ... who buy meals for u and blah blah blah... congrats... live happily... and stop said u wont live happily as u super high demanding....
7 july 08 1.12am
i'm really glad 2 hear u've learnt that much.. u dun hv to say sorry as i'm the one always hurting u.. after leaving u only i found how wrong i am not to appreciate all the things u've done for me.. life is just the same as b4 here.. nth change same old boring n meaningless lifestyle, well , no need to worry bout me.. i,ve learnt how to take care of myself after being here for so long time.. we r all alone in this world, no one can help except ourselve
* sorry with no action to repay i dun think the sorry worth to accept... well its human nature not to appreciate things on the front of the eye... but when lost it you know how much it means to you... well frankly people feels you might wanna come back for me but wht u did by this sms its making me b like a dummy for 1 week worry anything bad about u...
thanks all my friends supported me and i will not get anymore news from u... no matter how much i wanna noe wht happen to you... so as u said u wan ur life b alone? well you wont with your new bf...
wht i receive 1 week later from your msn its about you regret hurt me that much and thats all... so means this another tricks? to make me more suffer? haha you done a great job...
thanks for the bad feeling ... after fallen down and you make me again fallen...
well i cant b fooled again and again and again... try more and i will learn more ...
now i delete all your msg... i will clear alot your memories in my mind to let u go... so hv ur hapi life in ur penang institute and i hv my life of single in ktar ...
really thanks for spoiling my life by breaking up cause your action make me know more friends who helps me alot ... really but sorry to said your action cause me lost alot stuff... my industrial training... really must thank u for spoil it as i cant use it...
and really tahnks for creating this misunderstanding for the last 2 sms you able make me letting u go easier...
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
A friend Story
well this is a gal story real happening ... just to help me feels better...
x ]: let me tell u bout my ex
x ]: he went t over nite at gals place few times
x ]: kiss gal when gudbye
x ]: hug them infront of me
x ]: tickle other gals infront of me
x ]: controling all de time
x ]: *me
x ]: i cant even step out from my house
x ]: he wil gt crazy mad
x ]: even went out
x ]: must ask fer permissiong from him
x ]: cant back late than 7
x ]: he will screwed me up like hell
x ]: when fight up
x ]: he will look fer me when de mid nite even it is 4
x ]: i cant rejected his call
x ]: not even once
x ]: but he always dun answer my calls
x ]: he not even find me once fer a month
x ]: said not free n all those craps
x ]: but lefting times fer others so called frens go genting pd fer fun
x ]: he always scolded me like hell infront of my frens
x ]: u thk i will b better fer u?
x ]: but i dun left him cos i love him n i noe he still do
x ]: but coz we get together since form 3
x ]: n im acting a pet for him listen watever he said n he want to
x ]: but after i graduted from my secondary
x ]: i started to keep touch others
x ]: n he dunn like
x ]: he dun even let me gt other males frens
x ]: tis is so called manners
x ]: u noe???!!!
x ]: but i still love him alot
x ]: so do u thk u will b suffer than me?
x ]: so pls stop complaining coz u make me thk of him
x ]: u noe even now
x ]: after break up fer a years
x ]: he still controling me by if i blog bout other guys
x ]: he will call me out n said..
x ]: "u noe , i dun like it u with others"
x ]: i noe i still cant left it out
x ]: being telling myself fer a millions time
x ]: once he calls
x ]: i wanted to reject
x ]: but i cant
x ]: he asked to out
x ]: i feel like duno how to reject
x ]: i wanted to meet up hm
x ]: tat's not wat i want..but i cant!
x ]: who i can tell?
x ]: even i havin others now
x ]: i still cant forgt bout him
x ]: n he still noe bout it
x ]: even my bf oso asked me bout tis
x ]: it been a years plus broke up with him
x ]: fater broke up
x ]: u noe..i tried beg him
x ]: lost sleep fer 2 months
x ]: fall sick almost every months
x ]: but no one around me noe wat's going on
x ]: not even my best frens
x ]: so do u thk u still in a mess situation?
x ]: b happy everyday like i do.
x ]: dun ever thk back dy
x ]: now i being happy with my bf.even i still love tat sux guy
x ]: i will try my best ti let him go
there its a long story where below parts too private where i cant post... *as i lazy editing....
to my ex, please see wht you should b complaining... this is wht called complaining...
but still my this friend, love the awful guy alot...
i m letting you go.. till there is nothing left... as i dont really know whts make me should still keep the love of you as you stated our love its our memory and your heart no longer love me anymore...
well treating me a dummy and tell me that regreted that you dont appriciate me and live will never be happy again... all this your great lies as you get someone so nice to you...
your choice not to reply sms and pick up call making me worry for 1 week for nothing really make me like a dummy... well its okie... a dummy must wake from a dream of foolish love of yours and mine... well the dummy its me.. good bye ... continue with your hapi life ...
x ]: let me tell u bout my ex
x ]: he went t over nite at gals place few times
x ]: kiss gal when gudbye
x ]: hug them infront of me
x ]: tickle other gals infront of me
x ]: controling all de time
x ]: *me
x ]: i cant even step out from my house
x ]: he wil gt crazy mad
x ]: even went out
x ]: must ask fer permissiong from him
x ]: cant back late than 7
x ]: he will screwed me up like hell
x ]: when fight up
x ]: he will look fer me when de mid nite even it is 4
x ]: i cant rejected his call
x ]: not even once
x ]: but he always dun answer my calls
x ]: he not even find me once fer a month
x ]: said not free n all those craps
x ]: but lefting times fer others so called frens go genting pd fer fun
x ]: he always scolded me like hell infront of my frens
x ]: u thk i will b better fer u?
x ]: but i dun left him cos i love him n i noe he still do
x ]: but coz we get together since form 3
x ]: n im acting a pet for him listen watever he said n he want to
x ]: but after i graduted from my secondary
x ]: i started to keep touch others
x ]: n he dunn like
x ]: he dun even let me gt other males frens
x ]: tis is so called manners
x ]: u noe???!!!
x ]: but i still love him alot
x ]: so do u thk u will b suffer than me?
x ]: so pls stop complaining coz u make me thk of him
x ]: u noe even now
x ]: after break up fer a years
x ]: he still controling me by if i blog bout other guys
x ]: he will call me out n said..
x ]: "u noe , i dun like it u with others"
x ]: i noe i still cant left it out
x ]: being telling myself fer a millions time
x ]: once he calls
x ]: i wanted to reject
x ]: but i cant
x ]: he asked to out
x ]: i feel like duno how to reject
x ]: i wanted to meet up hm
x ]: tat's not wat i want..but i cant!
x ]: who i can tell?
x ]: even i havin others now
x ]: i still cant forgt bout him
x ]: n he still noe bout it
x ]: even my bf oso asked me bout tis
x ]: it been a years plus broke up with him
x ]: fater broke up
x ]: u noe..i tried beg him
x ]: lost sleep fer 2 months
x ]: fall sick almost every months
x ]: but no one around me noe wat's going on
x ]: not even my best frens
x ]: so do u thk u still in a mess situation?
x ]: b happy everyday like i do.
x ]: dun ever thk back dy
x ]: now i being happy with my bf.even i still love tat sux guy
x ]: i will try my best ti let him go
there its a long story where below parts too private where i cant post... *as i lazy editing....
to my ex, please see wht you should b complaining... this is wht called complaining...
but still my this friend, love the awful guy alot...
i m letting you go.. till there is nothing left... as i dont really know whts make me should still keep the love of you as you stated our love its our memory and your heart no longer love me anymore...
well treating me a dummy and tell me that regreted that you dont appriciate me and live will never be happy again... all this your great lies as you get someone so nice to you...
your choice not to reply sms and pick up call making me worry for 1 week for nothing really make me like a dummy... well its okie... a dummy must wake from a dream of foolish love of yours and mine... well the dummy its me.. good bye ... continue with your hapi life ...
Saturday, July 12, 2008
JUST WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST
JUST WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST
(Randy VanWarmer)
You packed in the morning and I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
But I miss you more than I
Missed you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
Now most every morning I
Stare out the window and I
Think about where you might be
I've written you letters
That I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me
'Cause I need you more than I
Needed before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
[Instrumental Interlude]
You packed in the morning I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
Now I love you more than I
Loved you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
Oh, yeah
You left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me
Just when I needed you most
Just When I Needed You Most - Bread Music Code
(Randy VanWarmer)
You packed in the morning and I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
But I miss you more than I
Missed you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
Now most every morning I
Stare out the window and I
Think about where you might be
I've written you letters
That I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me
'Cause I need you more than I
Needed before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
[Instrumental Interlude]
You packed in the morning I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
Now I love you more than I
Loved you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
Oh, yeah
You left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me
Just when I needed you most
Just When I Needed You Most - Bread Music Code
dedicated to my ex... JUST WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST
JUST WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST
(Randy VanWarmer)
You packed in the morning and I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
But I miss you more than I
Missed you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
Now most every morning I
Stare out the window and I
Think about where you might be
I've written you letters
That I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me
'Cause I need you more than I
Needed before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
[Instrumental Interlude]
You packed in the morning I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
Now I love you more than I
Loved you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
Oh, yeah
You left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me
Just when I needed you most
(Randy VanWarmer)
You packed in the morning and I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
But I miss you more than I
Missed you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
Now most every morning I
Stare out the window and I
Think about where you might be
I've written you letters
That I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me
'Cause I need you more than I
Needed before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
(Left me, just when I needed you most)
[Instrumental Interlude]
You packed in the morning I
Stared out the window and I
Struggled for something to say
You left in the rain
Without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
Now I love you more than I
Loved you before and now
Where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
Oh, yeah
You left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me
Just when I needed you most
Friday, July 11, 2008
2-4 JULY 2008 DIGI CAMP
well i separated it in 3 diff days...
2 July...
well i late for it as gathering stated 11.30am... so i take taxi as i couldnt get the bus... well reached the lrt still nid to wait for others... tell u all wht.. the actual time bus arrive is 1pm...
zzzzz swt... why set super duper early time meet up le... haihz...
wasted my taxi money...
we reached kl sentral at duno wht time but its still early...
well the bus come for us also late... so swt le... waited even longer zzzz...
reached the camp and the lunch so nice.... malay food again le... vy sien...
and all those ice breaking ar all event cancel as delay occured...
well things arent like planned earlier...
well we reached there about 3 pm and slacked for few hours at the canteen (HQ) for the event as we need to know which room we are in ... (as for me... camp 5 room rumah perlis... when u go in u nvr think so sux it is.... )
well we going to the hall duno wht name liao... sorry cause i forget ar...
to meet up u2 kumar... unfortunately... we meet him after dinner... well time wasted again just to wait others U to come the camp... as the bus delayed....
so we enjoy our dinner... (as better than lunch but quantity chicken small and one piece nia sien!)
after dinner we went in hall and start seminar wit U2kumar... well he kinda funny guy ...
hmmm or said that motivater abit sense of humor...
well i choose to b the team leader during the event and choosen my team ... haha... its a random pick... so dun ask me why i pick them as i didnt pick any1 from my college which i known... haha...
well its my honour to have my team 100 % support me ... thanks everyone in yellow converter...
well after in the seminar we went back to the place we stay...
hmmm bbq cooking section
well its sucks as we reach at 12am... and ended on 3 am +...
haihz... when reach back i see alot malay fellow anyhow took those room... well we share but those malay late commer didnt noe wht is respect about....
well dun k them... as useless to care about them...
well the nite bbq its a good memory where we work so hard cook together... guys of yellow converter , when wanna on bbq? haha i waiting this day again....
after bbq for tarcian armis nid to gathering for discussion for game part...
this is tiring and using our time... precious for resting... haihz...
well nvm v all try to cooperate it...
haha....
after meeting take bath sleep at 4 am +...
bout sleeping i wake few time cause tio bite by mosquito on neck and ears... well changed place to sleep and i sleep at corners ...
day 1 ended....
day 2... well early mornings... we wake ... and wear official T shirt for going the Digi HQ...
wow i lost my voice terribly... as i nid to shout... well to earn u2kumar cash for grad.. i nid to shout... we shout shout shout only get not much about 6.8 mil if not mistaken... kinda sad to hear that in morning part...
well we should work harder to reach it...
after lunch everything... in the evening we went to digi HQ center (this time really digi working place... ) well this is a valuable experience in looking at Digi how they working...
as their working place so so so beautiful haha... can see the pic in friendster....
well the dinner consider better than the we ate earlier... however i cant get the beautiful tart to eat haihz....
well after dinner and everything in DIGI HQ... we went back to the site for the night activities...
in the nite i didnt win any prices for the activity...
but lucky ktar game stall run good condition as pravin deals alot acting movement... haha...
well we all doing stupid things again... chit chatting at camp 7... outside playing sux dame... true or dare... well anson you great asking in doing those shit stuff ... haha.. but its funny to see and hear lur... aha...
well v all sleep outside...
as i too tired 1st down to sleep its me...
3rd day...
its final day and i woke up late summore its freezing cold... zzzz.... well lost my voice and my voice super sexy... however still nid to shout for the u2kumar cash to reach 40 mil minimum...
well no voice how to shout...?
got 1 way... put hand where pressing your throat... like that temporary can shout....
but end up voice vy nice for long time duno can recover anot...
well last day we reached 53.5 mil wow... but tio deducted so ~ 50 mil ... however we manage to surplus the min target 40 mil... i really hope we can reach 80 mil as targeted...
but we not enough work hard as we all tired... with low amount of members...
well final day i really cry... team member said 1 thing to me (its a gal but not chinese.. ) you are great leader there is nothing bad about you.. we all feel happy to have you as our leader... who being your gf will be the lucky one... * remarks i m single and i cried on the spot... well i told her i dont have a gf ...
we all grad as yellow armies... well alot details i not included as i getting lower mood to write it out.. sorry ....
well we all went back safely... and have pool game i mean i watching them play... wit sylvester and anson....
thats all
2 July...
well i late for it as gathering stated 11.30am... so i take taxi as i couldnt get the bus... well reached the lrt still nid to wait for others... tell u all wht.. the actual time bus arrive is 1pm...
zzzzz swt... why set super duper early time meet up le... haihz...
wasted my taxi money...
we reached kl sentral at duno wht time but its still early...
well the bus come for us also late... so swt le... waited even longer zzzz...
reached the camp and the lunch so nice.... malay food again le... vy sien...
and all those ice breaking ar all event cancel as delay occured...
well things arent like planned earlier...
well we reached there about 3 pm and slacked for few hours at the canteen (HQ) for the event as we need to know which room we are in ... (as for me... camp 5 room rumah perlis... when u go in u nvr think so sux it is.... )
well we going to the hall duno wht name liao... sorry cause i forget ar...
to meet up u2 kumar... unfortunately... we meet him after dinner... well time wasted again just to wait others U to come the camp... as the bus delayed....
so we enjoy our dinner... (as better than lunch but quantity chicken small and one piece nia sien!)
after dinner we went in hall and start seminar wit U2kumar... well he kinda funny guy ...
hmmm or said that motivater abit sense of humor...
well i choose to b the team leader during the event and choosen my team ... haha... its a random pick... so dun ask me why i pick them as i didnt pick any1 from my college which i known... haha...
well its my honour to have my team 100 % support me ... thanks everyone in yellow converter...
well after in the seminar we went back to the place we stay...
hmmm bbq cooking section
well its sucks as we reach at 12am... and ended on 3 am +...
haihz... when reach back i see alot malay fellow anyhow took those room... well we share but those malay late commer didnt noe wht is respect about....
well dun k them... as useless to care about them...
well the nite bbq its a good memory where we work so hard cook together... guys of yellow converter , when wanna on bbq? haha i waiting this day again....
after bbq for tarcian armis nid to gathering for discussion for game part...
this is tiring and using our time... precious for resting... haihz...
well nvm v all try to cooperate it...
haha....
after meeting take bath sleep at 4 am +...
bout sleeping i wake few time cause tio bite by mosquito on neck and ears... well changed place to sleep and i sleep at corners ...
day 1 ended....
day 2... well early mornings... we wake ... and wear official T shirt for going the Digi HQ...
wow i lost my voice terribly... as i nid to shout... well to earn u2kumar cash for grad.. i nid to shout... we shout shout shout only get not much about 6.8 mil if not mistaken... kinda sad to hear that in morning part...
well we should work harder to reach it...
after lunch everything... in the evening we went to digi HQ center (this time really digi working place... ) well this is a valuable experience in looking at Digi how they working...
as their working place so so so beautiful haha... can see the pic in friendster....
well the dinner consider better than the we ate earlier... however i cant get the beautiful tart to eat haihz....
well after dinner and everything in DIGI HQ... we went back to the site for the night activities...
in the nite i didnt win any prices for the activity...
but lucky ktar game stall run good condition as pravin deals alot acting movement... haha...
well we all doing stupid things again... chit chatting at camp 7... outside playing sux dame... true or dare... well anson you great asking in doing those shit stuff ... haha.. but its funny to see and hear lur... aha...
well v all sleep outside...
as i too tired 1st down to sleep its me...
3rd day...
its final day and i woke up late summore its freezing cold... zzzz.... well lost my voice and my voice super sexy... however still nid to shout for the u2kumar cash to reach 40 mil minimum...
well no voice how to shout...?
got 1 way... put hand where pressing your throat... like that temporary can shout....
but end up voice vy nice for long time duno can recover anot...
well last day we reached 53.5 mil wow... but tio deducted so ~ 50 mil ... however we manage to surplus the min target 40 mil... i really hope we can reach 80 mil as targeted...
but we not enough work hard as we all tired... with low amount of members...
well final day i really cry... team member said 1 thing to me (its a gal but not chinese.. ) you are great leader there is nothing bad about you.. we all feel happy to have you as our leader... who being your gf will be the lucky one... * remarks i m single and i cried on the spot... well i told her i dont have a gf ...
we all grad as yellow armies... well alot details i not included as i getting lower mood to write it out.. sorry ....
well we all went back safely... and have pool game i mean i watching them play... wit sylvester and anson....
thats all
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